I need u..

I need u in my life...ure the wonderful thing that ever happened in my life...ure so beatiful...funny...and the girl who could make me smile when im bored...i could barely smile for sumthing eventhough its funny...but u're juz too different...u change the whole life of mine...and i wished that i could change ure life too...i never thought that u will be mine..even for a second...but now...ure mine forever...u always drives me crazy...ure cute and also kinda lil crazy...but all that juz makes me love u more...u would try to convince me on doin sumthing that would take a high risk...u also always be there when i need u...u make me smile whenever im near wif u...and i could barely say that...im not always wif u...eventhough ure not near to me...im always near to u coz i'll always be by ure side...i'm worried when u're alone...u always being alone...ure such a lonely girl...now...im trying to make ure loneliness goes away...i cant see u in that situation...u have many probs...i would try to help u...i dun care if my probs is undone...coz ure more important...i never thought a girl...that as perfect as u...will come in to my life and be my soulmate...im very lucky to have sumone like u...that will not easily give up on me...im sorry if all this while...im juz making ure life miserable..but..if i do make ure life miserable...plz tell me...maybe i wanted to change ure life...but...i dun wanna change ure life to a more difficult situation...i will let u go...and never come back if becoz of me...u suffered more...plz..tell me the truth...i need to know...the longer this things keeps on goin like this...the more worried i will be when im thinking of u...i dun wanna be the one.that destroys ure wonderful life...i dun wanna be the one...that is very unlucky to u...all i need is truth from u...i dun deserve u actually...but why...why did u chose me...there's other guys that better than me...that could take good care of u...i know...im not the one...becoz its too hard to takecare of u...it's kjuz hard...i really wanna be the one for u...but i cant...i juz cant...there's many other guys that deserves u...i dun deserves u at all...im juz a jerk...that are so stupid...im juz a guy...that brings bad luck to ure life...maybe im lucky to have u...but...ure very unlucky to have me...im a shy person...i wont be able to takecare of u...i wont be able to show u that i love u...coz im such a shy person...im always shy...i hope this stupid attitude could go away...but..it juz cant...i need u...i really need u...but im sory to say this...i really dun deserve u...u belongs to sumone else...im not the perfect guy that u always be dreamin of...the perfect guy will show himself...when the time for us both...to collide...the perfect guy...will take good care of u baby girl...u dun have to worry about anything...he'll be there for u...not like me...i wont able to be there for u when u need me...its very hard...our moment to be together is gonna end...i juz cant be wif u...some day...i will destroy ure life...i dun wanna make that happen...so..the only way i could choose...the only way is to let u go...is to forget all about u from my heart...is to let my treasure goes away...is to give my treasure to sumone that deserves it...maybe i'll forget ure faces...ure voice...and also all of our memory together...but i swear...i wont forget ure name...ure name will always be my last treasure...maybe ure perfect...but...we need to accept that...everything's that is perfect...will lastly gone...i'll miss u...i'll miss u so damn much...but...when its time to let u go...i juz have to let all of my promises to u goes away...becoz...all of my promises...i coudln't make it come true...i am a failure..i am becoz i fail to take care of u...i will never be able to take care of u...i dun have the strength...i'm so sorry darling...i juz cant...maybe...by loving u...the love will bring us bad luck...i'm scared...i'm scared that u will have to go thru many obstacles becoz of me...i want to make ure life obstacle's lighter...i dun wan to make it heavier and u will have to go thru it all...if all this while...i have made u mad...angry...sad...im so sorry...plz forgive me...we could still be frends...but we couldn't be more than frends...i juz know it...do u remember when i said...one day..we will broke up? If u could recall ure memory...we did broke up for the second time...as i said...my feelings always rite...and now...my feelings said that...i wonnt be wif u forever...one day...we will broke up and never gonna be together back...we'll juz have to w8...if the time to wait is long...we could still spend ur time together...but if the time is short...for the last time...i wanna say...im so sory if i've done many mistakes to u...and if im juz making u suffer more...im so sorry...

My dream..

I would dream of u every night...coz...u are like...one part of my life already...u keep making me think of u every single second...i couldn't let u go...i juz cant...i really love u...i really wanting u by my side...always..coz i will be by ure side...eventhough u feel lonely sumtimes...u could juz remember that...u could try to talk to me...i'll always be there eventhough u're in a real bad situation...i juz dun like seeing u been in a sad situation..angry...lonely...if i could...i would always wanted to hug u...and never let go of u...even for a single second...i will protect u as long as im breathing...i will always wanting to protect u...even if i could juz hold ure hands...its enough...as long as ure always wif me...ure juz like part of my life...i need u...ure like my heart...when ure gone...i'll be dying...i'll protect u as i protect my heart...coz in my heart..there's full of ure faces...ure names...ure lovely voices...i need to take care of it...coz its juz like my treasure...i will never leave my eyes of u...i will always be looking at u...taking care of u...that's y...when people insult u...im mad...coz..they're like stabbing my heart...and its really pain...when they hurt u...in many ways...they're trying to hurt me as well...so im trying to protect this love forever...im trying my best...and i will always try my best to take good care of u baby girl...

I dun have the strength..

I juz dun have the strength to make our relationship last...i cant make this relationship last...im sorry...im juz not good enough for u...i dun think that we will happy together...i dun think so that we are meant together...we juz meant to be frends...frends that only for temporary...coz...we will never see each other sooner or later...u will go to ure path of ure life...and i will go to the path of my life...we just...will be together for a moment...it wont be long...we will break up...sooner or later...next month...next week...tmr...or maybe tonight...we dun even know what will happen after this...we just have to forget about each other...coz...we dun even close together...we always fought...we always quarrelling...we just messed up...or maybe only me...im the one who messed up...im sorry...i juz cant be the guy that u always wanted...i dun have the attitude of a "guy" that u like...that u will love no matter what happens...we just wont belong together...we are destined to juz be a temporary couples...sooner or later...we will break up...i dun have enough strength to take care of u...im sorry coz i've broke my promise to take good care of u...i juz dun have the strength to do that...i dun even know u better...we are juz like strangers looking for a love from sumone we are destined to be wif...but...u and i...are not destined to be together forever...im really sorry...i'll juz take my time...to think about this...and we will break up in a simple way...and wif not fighting...im tired of figthing wif u...i know u felt as same as me...so...if u do...juz dun make me fight wif u again...im really2 sorry if i have to say all this...but...this is the real truth...only miracle could make us together...forever...but...the chances to get the miracle...is too low...but...as long as i still have the strength...i will try my best to make our relationship last as long as it could...i will try to fulfill my promise to u...all of it...i really love u baby...but i juz must let u go some day...i juz wanna say that i will try to be there for u...when u needs me...i will use my last moment wif u...as it was the precious time ever...im sorry...

I'll love u until the last of my breath...

No matter wat happens between us...i will always love u...and...im not angry wif u when im not in the mood...im juz angry wif the jerks who like to bother u and insult u...u dun have to worry...i will never be mad at u until we are not frends...i will try to control my mood when im wif u...im trying my best...but...i hope...u have the patience to be wif me...coz...my mood always change when sumone talk bad about u...i'm trying to fulfill my promise to u...im trying my best...but...pls...for me...pls...i hope u have the patience to handle me...i dun wan becoz of me..u're harmed...and becoz of me...u suffered more...i juz cant stand wat ppl says about u...they called u a "prostitute" and more...it juz burns my heads up...i feel like gonna make they un-pride...but...i'll try not to do that for u...im scared of losing u...im really scared...im scared of losing the girl i have love...coz ure the most perfect girl i've ever met...i really love u...i'll try my best to change for u...juz for u baby...but...while im trying to change...u plz change too...i need u...and u need me...i'll guide u baby...i wont stop...i will always be there for u...if u need me..u can call me...anytime...i will spend all my time wif u...i will be ure shoulder to cry on...i will be the ear to listen to all ure probs...im always by ure side...i will spend every single seconds on u...i juz wanna make u happy all the time...that's y...when im mad...im suddenly ok...coz...i dun like seeing u being sad...mad...i dun like it...and i know u dun like it either....so....im trying my best just for u baby...

My love to her..

No one will know how much i love my special one...she will always be the one for me...today..tomorrow..4eva...i love her as much as i love family only more to her...she always makes me smile when im chatting wif her...eventhough we rarely talked at school b4...i mean..we did not talka t school AT ALL...but..as time passes...my love to her will be more and more...i dun know y...it juz makes me love her more everytime i think about her..and...she never leave from my mind...its kinda hard for me to forget about her even minute...i dun know if she really2 loves me...and if she is sincere to love me...but i dun care...at least...at least...i could get a fake love from sumone...becoz...all this time i din get any love...from anybody excepts my family...if she do...love me...but is fake...dun tell me...i dun wanna know...coz...i want this "fake" love from u forever...it makes me feels better when im in many kind of situations..sad...happy...overjoy...she's the one who always helps me to forget about all my probs..she's the key to my heart...she always makes me happy whenever im sad...i will tell her all of my probs...but...if she dun like it..u could juz say it to me...i dun care...coz...i juz dun want u to get hurt by me...u've been cpl-ing wif me for no reasons...maybe there's some reason u cpl=ing wif me..but that reason...no one will knows it...the true reason...no one will ever find it out...even herself..i dun think so she could explain the real reason to me y she love me...and cpl-ing wif me..coz i felt the same..i have a reason..i know i do...but..the reason is un-explainable...i dun know the real reason y i love her so frekin much..all i know is..i wanna be wif her forever...she's my last girl...if i broke up wif her...i wont be able to have any gf as good as her do to me..i wont be cpl-ing about years...coz when i broke up wif her...i will find the perfect person as perfect as her do to me...i dun even know the truth about the love between us two...i've never knows if she really...really sincere of loving me...but...if ure reading this baby...i love u...wif all my heart..u would never knows hw much i love u...only god...and i do...i hope our relationship will last forever...i really hoped that u'll be mine forever....I'll love u forever...and always...